A Day Left Till We're Officially Engage

Love isn’t about luxurious things in the world. It isn’t about driving a Ferrari , nor living in Paris. It isn't about the needs to have a good looking partner. Love is about that someday, you two will be able to reach your dreams, helping out each other. Love is about trust, even if everything falters. Love is about giving without expecting anything. Love is about sharing happiness and pain as well. Love is about accepting that person even if others can’t. Love is about holding on, even when all else fail.

p.s; A day left till we are officially engage. Feeling extremely sexcited.

I'd Only Be Unhappy If We Aren't Together

Sure we fight and i get sad sometimes but this relstionship is still the best thing in my life. I'm happy because of you and despite our arguments, i'd only be unhappy if we weren't together.

The Introduction

Went to Haziq's birthday chalet today over at Downtown East. It has been awhile since mum side had organize a family chalet. Only Wak Enab and Cik Omar family was there.

Today chalet was not only about celebrating Haziq's birthday. Today was also the day where I introduced Firly to my closest cousins. Coming from someone who rarely brings my other half along during family gathering, it is definitely something that my cousin was looking forward to. Nevertheless, i was glad everything went well and all my cousin had positive remarks about him. Now that the news has spread. I am looking forward for our mini engagement day.

The Worst Type Of Crying

Is when your lips starts to shake and tears build up quickly and fall fast. You're bemt overor crouched trying to suck it in and not make any noise but it hurts too much to hold it in so you let out a yelp and a cry than comes the loss of breath which sucks because not only you're crying out loud but you also think you sound dumb for not breathing too. It's just a mess.

Self Reminder #001

The only reason Allah (swt) is putting me through the test is because he knows that with a little determination, i can get through it. Allah does not burden a soul beyond what it has the strength to bear. So if Allah (subanahu wa ta’ala) believes in me, how can i not believe in myself?

Depression

There's always been a malay proverb,
'' Berani kerana benar, takut kerana salah. ''
Whereby you shouldn't be afraid of anything, even if nothing positive seems to be going your way. Because if you knows you're right, Allah will always help you and ensure everything goes smoothly. Even if it seems to be taking a much longer period of time than expected.
Unless, you know you've done wrong and doesn't admit it, that's when you should fear. Not fear of others, but fear towards Allah. On top of that, you'll suffer and be trapped inside your own fear which will eventually eat you up slowly from inside.
Therefore, always remember that the truth always prevails. No matter how you lie, truth will eventually find their way out to the top. No matter how far you run, or how you try to escape, truth will always win the battle.
Bak kata perpatah, '' Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua ''

Today i learn alot from my mum about the true meaning of this two proverb and i appretiate it alot.
I know i've made my mistakes, but with the truth out now, i've nothing to fear. I felt relieve.
I learnt from my mistakes and i strive to be a better person.

Another Life Lesson

There's always been a malay proverb,
'' Berani kerana benar, takut kerana salah. ''
Whereby you shouldn't be afraid of anything, even if nothing positive seems to be going your way. Because if you knows you're right, Allah will always help you and ensure everything goes smoothly. Even if it seems to be taking a much longer period of time than expected.
Unless, you know you've done wrong and doesn't admit it, that's when you should fear. Not fear of others, but fear towards Allah. On top of that, you'll suffer and be trapped inside your own fear which will eventually eat you up slowly from inside.
Therefore, always remember that the truth always prevails. No matter how you lie, truth will eventually find their way out to the top. No matter how far you run, or how you try to escape, truth will always win the battle.
Bak kata perpatah, '' Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua ''

Today i learn alot from my mum about the true meaning of this two proverb and i appretiate it alot.
I know i've made my mistakes, but with the truth out now, i've nothing to fear. I felt relieve.
I learnt from my mistakes and i strive to be a better person.

Reality

All teenagers knew this was true. The process of growing up was nothing more than figuring out what doors hadn’t yet been slammed in your face. For years, parents tell you that you can be anything, have anything, do anything. That was why she’d been so eager to grow up-until she got to adolescence and hit a big fat wall ofreality. As it turned out, she couldn’t have anything she wanted. You didn’t get to be pretty or smart or popular just because you wanted it. You didn’t control your own destiny, you were too busy trying to fit in.

- Jodi Picolut

Reality

All teenagers knew this was true. The process of growing up was nothing more than figuring out what doors hadn’t yet been slammed in your face. For years, parents tell you that you can be anything, have anything, do anything. That was why she’d been so eager to grow up-until she got to adolescence and hit a big fat wall ofreality. As it turned out, she couldn’t have anything she wanted. You didn’t get to be pretty or smart or popular just because you wanted it. You didn’t control your own destiny, you were too busy trying to fit in.

- Jodi Picolut

Mirror

You know the moments when you look in the mirror and you think shit that’s me because for some reason it feels like the person you’re looking at in the mirror is an unfamiliar stranger and you begin thinking about how you’re a person on a planet in a solar system in a galaxy in a universe and for a few minutes you ponder the origin and the meaning of existence and then shrug and return to your computer.

Late Night Thoughts

It always gets worst at night. When Puteri is fast asleep but i'm here lying on my bed wide awake. I start to realize how alone i really am. Literally and metaphorically. It's always lonely at night. When there's no one to talk to, no one to save you from yourself.

Social Media #relationship001

#relationship001
Don't be afraid of making your relationship directly noticeable on social media. A loving status might anger some of the friends that's on your list, but it will give your partner a reason to smile from ear to ear for the next few days.

A Thing I Learnt Today

This morning, I had a rough start to the day. It totally brought down my mood, and I was cranky all day. I was sitting at the table eating with my mom, and I was rather rude to her. I tried to excuse my behavior by saying, “Oh, I’m having a bad day, I have a right to be cranky, God will understand”

But then I felt as though someone just slapped me in the back of my head, saying,how dare you try to say God will  understand your rudeness. There is no excuse for being disrespectful.

So I took a deep breath. Counted to 10 in my head. And I changed my mood. I totally went from being a cranky crab to positive and laid back Majede. It was insane even I couldn’t believe that within 10 seconds I managed to turn my mood 360 degrees.

I kissed my mom and got her another cup of coffee and she tried to hide it but by the look in her eyes she was just as shocked as I was.

Moral of the story that i learn today : you have control over what you want to feel. Sometimes we all feel the need to be sad or angry because we want people to feel sorry for us so maybe, just maybe they’ll care. But reality is, all you’re doing is rubbing off your negative energy onto them. If you want them to care, give them a reason to. Next time you’re in a bad mood and notice you’re putting everyone else in a bad mood, tell yourself feeling this way won’t make you and anyone around you happier. Count to 10, and for the sake of Allah,change your attitude. It’ll be hard, but it’s the best way to be able to pick yourself up and move along in life.

Putting What I Want On Hold

So, i decided to quit my Private A-levels. And i am stuck on a one year contract as a Part Timer at my current job. Now getting only half of my salary that i used to received. Guess, now i've to admit defeat and ask for my parents support till i finally manage to get a proper job with an acceptable pay.
I'll now have to put my education aside on hold first. But i will ensure that i'll find a way to achieve what i want. It is not the end.

Let Our Scars Fall In Love

We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you’ve been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn’t until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems—the ones that make you truly who you are—that we’re ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you’re looking for. You’re looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person—someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, “This is the problem I want to have.” I will find that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way. Let our scars fall in love.